Pavlina: Life is Not For the Living

Oh-Boyo! I have been quite the busy person! Blog, can you forgive me? Sorry to have neglected you for so long but I have been the busy bee! When you Heroine last left you (that’s me) she was fixing a washing machine and putting all negative people in their places! Well, lately I have been CREATING!

What am I creating? If you talk to Jason, he will say “A mess in the office” which is true, in a way. I have been creating in the office! Sewing up a storm! Besides the “normal” sewing i do for myself, I have been making the kid’s costumes. The boy decided to be a knight, the girl decided to be a princess. A second benefit is we can also wear the costumes to the Maryland Renaissance Festival! Of course, I made the costumes as difficult as possible.

I wanted the boy to look as if he were really wearing chain mail, so I had to create chainmail from fabric. As much as I love the ladies from Pattern Review, they don’t know jack about costuming! I would have been better going to the forums at the Costumer’s Manifesto, I think. I did figure it out, and we have chainmail! I used muslin, taffeta and metallic netting!

Those are the fabrics all on their own, but magic, I mean chain mail occurs when you assemble them just right!

I have bits of Chainmail on my table! LOL! So the Boy’s costume is 75% done. I just have to grommet the tunic, finish the shoulder armor bits and figure out pants.

The Girl. Now you would think sewing a princess dress would be easy. This would probably be true if you didn’t have OCD costume Mama on the case! I found a perfectly decent pattern, then set about changing almost everything about it. I removed the princess seams, which meant I had to redo the entire bodice. I then separated the bodice from the gown, making a separate bodice and skirt. So then I had to make a waistband for the skirt, then I didn’t want to gather the skirt, so I cartridge pleated it (came out very lovely) then had to do precise measuring so the different colored front panel would match up just right….sigh.

Now the Girl needs a slip to go under the entire thing as it looks a bit sad and non-puffy. I need more bleached muslin and some of the tulle I wisely bought during my last trip to JoAnns (It’s like I knew I would need a….PETTICOAT). Yes, the Girl will have a nice petticoat for the skirt and she really needs it as the skirt is quite heavy and I refuse to put my three year old into a corset which would hold the weight of the skirts, so I need that nice puffy petticoat that will have some sort of tie contraption to hold those skirts up! I did manage to finish the trim on the bodice, I still need to put the trim on the skirt, and I am going to maybe reconsider that, as it will be Hell on Earth to sew the trim since I have already gathered the wretched thing.

Speaking about gathers, rather pleats. Cartridge pleats. This was my very first cartridge pleated item I have ever made. It did not go as well as I want.

I don’t like how I can see all the stitches holding the pleated part of the skirt to the waistband. I am thinking about making a little “cap” for the waistband to cover the top of the stitches. Looking at it now, I KNOW for a fact I followed the directions for sewing the two together. The only thing I can think is that the broadcloth is too light maybe? I don’t know. I don’t like the way it looks. I also have to properly close the skirt. I just had it held together with a safety pin, and I don’t have it finished back there at all. I still need to knot all my gathering cords. I had originally intended to finishe the waistband with more grommets, but I am willing to just put the skirt aside until I finish the petticoat.

Let’s talk about the petticoat! I don’t want to horrify you with my awful sketching, but I took the bodice pattern (notice I am calling it a petticoat and not a chemise!) and marked the waist, then I dropped the bust line an inch or so, then made that my bodice pattern. I am using tulle (definitely NOT period) to give the bottom some oompf, so it will be completely lined, then I will have a bunch of bleached muslin gather for the first tier, then the second tier will start at mid calf, and this is where the tulle will be, with more bleached muslin on top. Part of me is scared this will be too much, but then I look at the skirt and am comforted. It just looked so sad hanging there all alone. I would have been better of making a proper chemise, but then she would have need a farthingale for the volume! Since no-one will be peeking under her skirts, I decided to cheat a bit with the tulle. Sue me.

Whew!

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It still going and I’m still on it! W00T!

I haven’t purchased anything on the banned list! Wooooo-hooooo! It belatedly occurs to me I should have done monthly updates…

What I have bought:

1. lip balm
2. mascara
3. brow liner
4. various skin care

That’s it! Lip balm, come on, everyone needs this! Mascara, well I needed some waterproof. Brow liner. Okay, this is where this gets tricky. When I first started the brow pencil I was using was maybe 1/3 of the way gone. I had another, but it was a regular pencil (that you need a sharpener for) and I didn’t like it as much as it doesn’t give the think line the other did. So I bought a new one. I threw the other one away. I can justify this by saying that why should I use crap that I hate anyway! I also plan to throw out all the old liquid foundation I haven’t used in a year! It must all be harboring a googol of bacteria! Yuck. In the trash you go. That leaves me with one. Plus I have my dry mineral powders. I reckon I’ll have to get more around Christmas time. I already mentioned that skin care is not makeup.

So there is my update. I have done quite well, and I have gotten all kinds of cool costume gear. Of course I have been all busy sewing and creating instead of posting here, but I have a nice, fat, picture laden post of the costume progress in the works, so stay tuned.

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So, I’ll admit it here and now. The factory is closed. I have two kids and I don’t want anymore. I love them into tiny little pieces, but I am done. Period.

Thing is, I want a more permanent form of birth control, get my meaning? A surgical form of birth control. These come in two flavors, male and female.

I go to this website. Under the female flavor it says:

Women who are looking for a permanent form of birth control may choose to have a tubal ligation, also known as getting your “tubes tied” or female sterilization….In some cases, a woman may choose to have a hysterectomy. This is when the entire uterus (and possibly the fallopian tubes, ovaries and/or cervix) is removed. Unlike a tubal ligation, a hysterectomy is not reversible….For women that are sure that they do not want any more children, or any children at all, having a tubal ligation can be a successful means of birth control. Although tubal ligation reversal surgery is available, all women should consider having their tubes tied as a permanent solution. Therefore, it is best to take your time and talk with your doctor as well as your partner so that you can be sure that this is the right decision for you.

All very good points. I was a bit apprehensive how casually this site dropped in The Hysterectomy. I mean, we are talking major, big time surgery here! Not just, “gee, I don’t want any more kids,” but more like “Gee, I seem to have a massive tumor or growth down there.” I didn’t think women got The Big H done for birth control. I’ll admit that it seems to have certain…perks. Major surgery? No thanks.

At any rate, I cruise over and look at the male flavor. You know, for giggles.

Aside from condoms, a vasectomy is pretty much the only other method of male birth control available. A vasectomy is a simple procedure that can be done in a doctor’s office and is a permanent way of preventing pregnancy. …Suits You?
A vasectomy is seen as a permanent form of birth control. It is generally recommended for men that are done having children or are absolutely certain that they do not want to have children….If you are not absolutely sure that you do not want children, would like to have biological children in the future, are being pressured to have a vasectomy, or have not taken into account life changes, such as remarriage and the death of a child, having a vasectomy may not be the best choice for you right now.

Now, I got to say, this is totally out of line. the female flavor gets a warning that is they want any or any more children not to get it done. Then the male flavor comes out with making sure they don’t want to have children, TWICE. Then say make sure you don’t want children, biological children, are being pressured (WTF?) or have not taken into account life changes???? Such as remarriage???? Why don’t we, as women, get the came warnings? I mean, doesn’t this go both ways? What if a woman gets remarried and wants to have “biological” children? What if one of her children dies in an unfortunate accident and she wants another? What if she is getting pressured for the procedure?

Why are all these riders only on the male page and not for the female?

Absolutely crazy.

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I know I have ranted about poor customer service before. It is terrible to be the victim of bad customer service. Standing as the random victim, caught in an act relatively routine. Perhaps it was the return of an unwanted/unintended item, or more information was needed, maybe there was an error on the bill, or were charged too much, maybe there was a foreign object in the product. Used to be, THE CUSTOMER WAS ALWAYS RIGHT. Period.

Now it’s more like, the customer is right on adjacent Tuesdays in the leap year cycle, for the time interval of 1:59 to 2:03 GMT. This is null and void if the premises is located in the greater European region, the time interval is then from 6:01 – 7:59 GMT -6. During this time, the customer will be right, at all other times the establishment will be right and may kick the customer in the teeth with no recourse. Complain as you will.

Now, I know I wrote that tongue-in-cheek, but doesn’t it really feels like it?

I firmly adhere to the belief that the recent (last ten years) decline in customer service is directly correlated to the rise of the internet and the anonymity enjoyed by billions. People get so used to trashing other people with no recourse it’s only a matter of time before that behavior begins bleeding over into “real life”. Maybe that is one reason I am always saying preaching (over and over, till I’m blue in the face) that we must all play nicely on the internet and NOT SPREAD VITRIOL!!!

The economy is in the crapper, you would think retail establishments would be wooing customers, not treating them like something they scraped off the bottom of their shoe. So let’s list the key players of customer service (CS) abuse:

1. My break started 2 minutes ago. In this CS mishap, the perpetrator will do anything to get you out of their hair as fast as possible. An example could be if you are trying to return something, all of a sudden the store has mysterious return policies where you also need to show your driving permit that expired 20 years ago to bring back the pair of shorts you bought and only realized after you got them home they are two sizes too small.
2. My SO just dumped me. Good luck. That’s all I have to say. You are at this person’s mercy. This is the equivalent of a suicide bomber. This person feels like they have nothing to live for and their last mission is to make everyone else around them as miserable as they are. I hope you don’t mind your eggs getting broken.
3. I’m too good for this job. Well, you probably are. I STILL need to get this printer, so just tell me if I should get this one or that one, ring it up and I’ll be on my way. Oh, I see. You were laid off from Big A Company. Sorry to hear that. Oh, what’s that? You made three times as much as you do now for this crappy electronics store? That really sucks…hee harr, can we just ring this up?
4. I follow the rules to the T. Usually, this one works out to your advantage. That is, until their computer systems goes wonky. Then you will be treated like the garbage from the shoe. I don’t care if the big clearing house got the hotels dates wrong. I don’t care what it says! I need to sleep! It’s midnight and I’m tired! Sleep! Now! you get, sorry ma’am, the computer says you’re checking in tomorrow. Good luck. This one will hide behind the rules until the cows come home. When the cows arrive, she’ll slap them on the hineys until they run back out.
5. I’m too smart for this job. This sounds a lot like number 3, eh? Nope, different beast altogether. Usually number 3 has a reason, no matter how thin and flimsy it is, for thinking they are indeed better than their current position would indicate. Mr. too-smart-for-this could well have never graduated from high school. Hell, he went to the University of Hard Knocks! He doesn’t need a knucklehead like you rolling up in here, trying to bring back this item that you stole anyway! Ugh, good luck.

So, there you have it. Not a completely exhaustive list.

Oh, by the way. in order to make this blog as customer or reader friendly as possible I have reopened comments on older posts. Enjoy.

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No, I don’t usually post this often. I try for a couple per week. I’ve been getting a few hits from the Baltimore Sun’s Dining@large site. This is due, in part, to my big mouth. When the truth flows from it, I may not stop it. Anyway. If you are here from there, then welcome. Welcome if you come in peace. If you’re coming to be a jerk then bugger off. I mean it, leave now. I have nothing here that a jerk would enjoy. I don’t spread vitriol, I am not “snarky”. I am, well, I don’t know what I am. I tell my stories about me and my kin, sometimes when I make contact with an excellent product I’ll talk about it, sometimes I post pictures, sometimes I write long posts on what is on my mind that day. I do spend a lot of time on each post, and most of them take me a few days to write. Except for this one

I realize that my About is very vague. It’s like that for a reason, but I do think it gives a feeling on the overall flow of the site. I think my long time readers will agree. No, I do not mean that life is for the dead. If you’re shaking your head over what I am writing, then this is goodbye for us two. We have nothing in common. I don’t mean that in a bad way, it’s just the way it is.

If you like what you see, and the site design is fabulous, no? Please stick around. I’ll look forward to seeing you in a few days.

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A surefire way to increase traffic to your blog is to leave comments on other sites. At least, that’s what they say. It is a good method, actually. This is especially true if one leaves thoughtful and insightful comments or even comments that go against the original posters/bloggers thought stream. I got a few hits after I posted a comment on the Super Eco site for their bashing of natural ingredients. I also got a few just recently after posting a comment on the dining@large blog for the Baltimore Sun’s Dining section. I frequent this blog because….I really don’t know why. Sometime they have good articles about restaurants I’ll never go to….hmmmm. Anyway, thoughts for another day.

This particular posting was about Calorie restriction. Now, I am not even going to go there. I don’t really want to write an entire post on calorie restriction as I am sure Wikipedia has a good write up on it, so feel free to go and check it out. I always think I do a kind of twisted calorie restriction. What I mean by that is that I don’t eat constantly , I stop eating when full (not over stuffing), I naturally seem to stay away form high fat//salt foods (no Spam, or pig brains for me, also not a fan of Mayo), and McDonald’s hasn’t seen me in years. So, I wouldn’t even call it Calorie restriction, per se, even a twisted version, as I eat when I am hungry. I think the point here is that I eat when I am hungry. Period. Actually I’m grateful for this, and it was struggle for me to get here. I had a twisted past history with food, let us just leave it at that.

I don’t have anything against the people who practice calorie restriction, anymore so that I have something against those whole eat a bucket of chicken everyday. Hey, my life is too short for that. What I do not like (no surprise here) is people getting their knickers all in a twist about what other people are doing. I know myself to be guilty of it on occasion, I know, I know. So all the comments were just laying down layer after layer of vitriol. Things like, “does it make you live longer or does it just seem like it” (okay, that one is a bit funny), “Notice that no one interviewed is over 70? Where are all the really healthy 100 year olds that use this diet?”, Mental. Illness.” , “Deep fried crazy” and my favorite, “This is too ghastly for comment except to say that the woman in the picture’s head is about 3 times to large for her shoulders.”

Ugh.

Be nice.

Really.

So I wrote this: “That’s right, why don’t we all pile negativity on those who can restrict their eating? I don’t practice CR, but I also eat a lot less than the average American. The fact that I am well within the average BMI numbers is no accident. We could all use a bit less food if you ask me. Just look at the average size of people today! I think it’s disgraceful.”

That was a bit disgraceful, but I was fired up after plowing through all that negativity!

Then this is what someone replies to me: “Eating less than the average American is one thing (I’m fairly sure I eat less than the average Americain). Deliberately making yourself feel hungry is quite another thing. I’m not really sure what “life is not for the living” means.”

I didn’t know one had to “deliberately” make yourself hungry. I always thought that what happened after a finite amount of time has passed since your previous meal and your body is telling you it need more. “I’m not really sure what “life is not for the living” means.” Ah, the killer blow! Guy never even came here! Such sadness! If anyone needs to know Life is not for the living, this guy does. Oh, he sent the arrow through my heart! He didn’t go to the About section! Could it be? Do I have *gasp* poor website design!!!

So then I reply that back. Cause I got ‘no life.

Actually this is what I wrote:

“Name of Guy: I didn’t know one had to “deliberately” make yourself hungry. I always thought that what happened after a finite amount of time has passed since your previous meal and your body is telling you it need more.

Thank you for summing up in your comment replying back to me. If these people want to restrict what they eat, how does this hurt you or anyone else? Calling them crazy, or OCD is uncalled for. Offer your opinion, but try not to let it cross over into personal attacks. It’s bad etiquette.”

So, I’ve written both about Life is Not For the Living, and comment etiquette so this guy just clicked the link to my site, but didn’t even bother reading anything. Then went back to the original post and left me that little snide comment.

Nice.

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I know many people don’t have much respect for SEO (Search Engine Optimization), but if you own a blog or any space on the internet it is something you need to become familiar with NOW! If you are counting on the Google, Yahoo, Bing, Alta Vista, ask.com, or any other spiders to find your site without any help from your part, dream on. I can’t even begin to tell you how many pages there are on the internet right now, but it is a lot. More than that. The fact is this, people (I mean strangers) will NEVER find your post without SEO. Period.

Earlier today I posted my Kenmore story. I just Googled “replacing the lid switch on a sears kenmore 80 series” and here is a snapshot of the page I get:

That’s the post I made not three hours ago, already the number six search result. The power of SEO.

Between you and me, it’s the best article out there.

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I think the title says it all.

Now, I am not really Mrs. Fix-it, but when things break….

When I was in Seattle, what, almost a month ago now! The washing machine “would not drain”. Okay…so Jason went home and reported back to me it was the lid switch. It had gone bad, but if you put in a bit of paper or something and wiggled it just so, the problem was solved. Me, I didn’t care one way or the other, honestly. I don’t do laundry at the house, Jason does and Aubrey usually does the kid’s. Problem was, when Jason went away and I had to do some laundry. I broke the silly jury-rigged thing ASAP. Oh damn, now I had a washing machine tub full of disgusting wash water and towels. Grrrrrrr. I tried to fiddle with the lid switch and a rolled up bit of paper to no avail. The darned thing was BROKEN.

In the interest of full disclosure, I should also say the following. We have a newer washing machine/dryer in the garage. I thought it was way too much weight for me and Jason to move alone so I hemmed and hawed my way of out moving the new set in, so the lid switch was never “fixed”. I then tried to Freecycle it, hoping that the Freecycler would help me move the new set into the house and take the old ones away. The moderators at Freecycle wouldn’t let me post the bit about the help as that violated the “no string attached” rule, and apparently folks around here have it too good, as nobody wanted a perfectly good washing machine minus a working lid switch.

I Googled how to fix a lid switch, etc. It seemed an easy repair. I got the model number off the machine, put that into the Sears repair site and found the lid switch. Yup, that looked like the part I needed, It cost around 35 small ones. I looked up directions for replacing the lid switch. I went to two Sears on two consecutive days to secure the needed part. The first day, the Sears did not have the part in stock, but could order it for me. It would take a week. A week? I had a tub full of nasty towels! (Did I neglect to mention that I had removed the sodden towels and I don’t know how many gallons of water from the tub by hand?) So I got the location of another Sears that had the part. Since I had a “free night” I decided that I would disassemble the machine and that way when I got the part the next evening, I could just “pop” it in. Right.

I followed the directions I found on this post: Kenmore 80 series lid switch. The post has sentences in it like:

First of all, unplug your washer. You will need to remove the console in order to get to the lid switch. I believe your washer has release tabs under the console at each front corner. Simply slide a putty knife straight in from the front at each corner and push in while lifting up. You should feel the release tabs push in and the console will pop up. Or, you may have a console that has removable end caps. They can be removed by gently prying up on the top of them from the rear on each side. You may have to use a small screwdriver for this. The caps should pop right off. Once removed, you will need to loosen a screw under each cap. Once you have the console loosned, carefully lift it up and lay it back over the rear panel of the washer in its resting position. Be careful not to damage the small plastic hinges that hold it in place. Now you will need to perform the following steps:

1. Under the console you will find the lid switch connector. Unplug the switch from the connector.

2. There will be two brass colored clips. You will need to remove these to remove the machine casing. Place a flat blade screwdriver straight down into the opening on top of the washer and into the groove of the clip. Push the screwdriver away from you while holding into the groove and the clip will release.

Okay, very good. My washer ended up having the end caps, but they really didn’t look the way I expected them to.

Those are the screws under the caps you must unscrew to remove the console, or the part of the machine that has all the knobs and whatnot on it. Or, and I could never find a “resting” place for said console. I had to prop it up with a smallish fabric softener bottle once I had it loose. The next step of unplugging the lid switch is very easy, there is only one connection to unplug.

You can see it in this photo quite well. Oh, those are the brass clips the instructions are referring too. This was where I threw the towel in, as it was late, I was tired and could not figure out what brass clips they were talking about! But then inspiration struck! Searching YouTube I came across this video…

I saw those big clips were indeed the clips I was looking for, so I went back in, popped them off, then lifted the cabinet up and off! I had to move the smallish fabric softened bottle to do this. Then I called it a night.

Next day, I got the new part in my hot little hands. I had my two little helpers this time. So I pulled the entire cabinet up and off, then looked where the old lid switch was snuggled up into it.

I unscrewed the grounding screw, unclamped the two areas where it was clamped, you can just see one of them in the photo, and took the old, broken one out.

You can see the printed out directions and I am holding up the defective part.

If you compare the two photos you can see how droopy it is? FAIL! SO I put the grounding screw of the new working part it, clipped the parts that needed clipping. There are also two screws that hold the lid switch in place. All the while, my two little helpers were awesome! They held the cabinet up so I could do all this (our laundry room is tiny!), then I put the cabinet back in place, clipped the connection back in place, put the brass clips back in and the cabinet was back on! Here is a once photo of the lid switch in place.

Then I put the console back on, replaced the end caps, plugged it back in (important) and ran a short test cycle.

We did it!

I think the kids were just happy that mommy was so happy.

This was very very very easy to do. My goodness, was it ever easy. Hope this helps!

Edit: Did you find this helpful? I really hope you did. Drop me a note if you did, thanks!

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You know I believe in Kharma. I also believe in Garbage in, Garbage out. The two are really two ways of saying the same thing.

Speaking of kharma, if someone did a bad thing to me they should quake in their boots (but they never do). I know all kinds of ways to make their online and thus their real life a complete rendition of Hell on Earth, but I wouldn’t do it. Well, unless I was really, really torqued. It hasn’t happened yet, I wouldn’t want all that bad Kharma you see. Maybe if I really felt I had been dealt with unjustly I would say, to heck with Kharma and do all those mean and nasty things, but I haven’t been in that dark place yet. Thank goodness.

So I kind of trip through life like a convoluted Mary Poppins as I try to be generally nice and not make people angry. I can’t help sometimes having blacks thoughts and then I earn negative Kharma points and these always get cashed in. I do this weird derring-do dance where I try to be nice, but this passive aggressive side I have kicks in and does all kind of evil. Hmmmm. Anyway, as I was saying. Garbage in, garbage out.

I really do believe you are what you eat. I can tell when I have had a day eating crap, I feel tired and wore down. Even right now I don’t feel so hot as I have not had my usual amount of fruits and veggies. I think people who are tired and cranky all the time really should look at their diet. What are they eating? Chances are, it is affecting their mood. Maybe I have it wrong, but if I ate at McDonald’s several times a week, I would be a mental wreck.

Isn’t that the perfect figure? Exactly what I’ve been babbling. If you are a perfect (healthy) person and you est garbage, garbage comes out. If you are a person who’s been eating garbage the last 30 years, and you eat healthy, garbage still comes out. Lucky our bodies are incredible machines and if you keep up the healthy eating, you’ll get perfection.

Wow, I have really rambled on and on here. I had meant to talk about about garbage in the more general sense of the term, and instead I end up talking about food. Typical.

Do you know any bitter, cynical, generally unhappy people? I really think it has to do with their negative attitude. If you go out with a negative attitude, then you’ll get it back. I know, you’re thinking of my toxic post from a couple of days ago where I ripped into that author. Well, I really do think anyone with a fan base really owes it to that fan base (Barry Bonds nonwithstanding) to cater to them and suck up to them. Of course, I’m not famous so what do I know? Oh yeah, I’m a fan and I know how I like to be treated.

So, the moral of the story is, all that stuff your mom and grand-mom told you is true. treat others the way you want to be treated, you are what you eat, don’t make that face because it will get stuck.

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Is it depression? You know, I’m not sure. We all get bombarded with so many ads on the television trying to cure us of depression and anxiety. I often wonder, are that many people truly depressed? Is it more of a problem these days that it was before? There must be a lot of money in the pharmaceutical market for “feel” good drugs.

Personally speaking, I don’t like taking medication. Sure, I’ll take an Advil when I get a headache, a Claritin when my allergies act up, and I take medicine for my asthma and allergies everyday in the form of a mouth and nasal inhaler, respectively. I am a bit leery to take something that can modify my entire personality, but if my personality needed modification….

I was in a bit of a funk the last few days. I think it was initially brought on my poor Martin getting too friendly with some poison ivy. He already has the most sensitive skin of anyone in the family so it really hit him hard. Of course he would scratch in his sleep and wake up crying from the pain. Poor guy. This meant for like three nights in a row I got very little uninterrupted sleep. It was beginning to feel like back in the days of babies where I actually would dread going to bed at night because I knew I wouldn’t get any sleep. The thing about me and sleep is this: I need lots of it. Like 8 hours minimum and I am always willing to get more. So after three nights of little sleep I was getting psychotic anyway. Then I still had poor little Martin to look after, the Nanny was being a complete idiot (sorry, must be said) and was wearing latex gloves and I overheard her telling Martin not to touch her. WTF? See, I get all mad and seeing red just thinking about it. I can add it to the list of things she does that I find completey pointless and ridiculous. Of course, we are all entitled to these small acts, but you know.

I got a bit sidetracked there. So I’m tired, Martin is sick, Nanny is an idiot, Jason is in Asia, washing machine breaks. Damn. I remember at one point Sunday morning, sitting on the floor of my bedroom and I was so tired. It was like depression (or whatever it was I was going through) was a large fluffy bed and I was on it fighting to get out and stay awake. The feeling/bed just was so nice and comfy that it was overwhelming me. Like that. “Damn,” I thought. I got up and went about my business, but I never even left the house on Sunday (yesterday). I didn’t even do any laundry (couldn’t, washing machine is broke). I did clean the floors…and that was it. Couldn’t even be bothered to make dinner. We had leftovers.

Whenever I get to feeling this way, I always wonder why? Why now? I got too much to do. I had promised the kids I would take them to the aquarium, but I never did. The kids ended up watching hours and hours of TV, and I couldn’t even be bothered to feel bad about it.

Maybe I was just tired…I don’t know. I’ll let you know what works.

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